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HEY KIDS REMEMBER MY NAME HAS BEEN CHANGED
2.....
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[26 Dec 2001|06:18pm] |
member my name is changed
put me on your list my friends.
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| changed journal!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
[25 Dec 2001|02:11pm] |
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MY NAME IS CHANGED...I AM NO LONGER SEXY! HAHA
NEW NAME
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got it?....k.
If your already have me as a friend u have to add me as a friend again...if ya want...cause it wont let me read your stuff on my new name inless ya do...or something like that?
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| GUITAR BOYS ARE SEXY |
[24 Dec 2001|06:29pm] |
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Chris said he would play and sing this for someone special.
Guess i wasnt special
I love this song...haha my mood sux...stay away.
I wanna make you smile whenever you're sad
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad
All I wanna do is grow old with you
I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks
Oh it could be so nice, growing old with you
I'll miss you
Kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold
Need you
Feed you
Even let ya hold the remote control
So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed if you've had too much to drink
I could be the man who grows old with you
I wanna grow old with you
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[24 Dec 2001|05:12pm] |
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sunny day real estate-every shining time you arive |
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So yes it is official i have actualy been single for about a week...but i guess i pretended i wasnt.
He called me today, to wish me a Merry Christmas...i guess its Christmas for him or something like that.
He said he doesnt see it as breaking up but as a "break"
I told him breaks dont work out....cause i relationship is communicating and talking about what your going though...and a break is the opposite. So that was alot of fun.
i took the longest bath ever..and listened to music...baths are good cause then u cant tell the diference between your tears and the bathwater. Afterwards i decided to cheer myself up so i went on a date with Becca...went to the mall, starbucks, got pictures back from friday night...theres one with me on franko with the corniest smile ever(cause it was a happy night!)
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Ya so i love him, and theres nothing i can do about it.
All tell him next time i see him...
I remember one time i broke up with this boy Stuart...people prb know him but i broke up with him on Dec 15th ....and i was dumped on the 15th....cool huh?
well that was just my little fun fact for the day.
all stop writting......i love you all
Christmas is tomorrow...have good times!!!
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[23 Dec 2001|03:38pm] |
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Dont you think that Jarek is the guy off of ALMOST FAMOUS???
HE IS..he really is.
Incubus-morning view is the best ever
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[23 Dec 2001|01:20pm] |
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<td> </td><td width="400">You are passionate about what you want out of life, and some have even described you as coarse. But deep down inside you have a good heart and that's all that matters. Actually...all that really matters is that your boyfriend is Brodie!
Take The "Which Kevin Smith Female Are You?" Quiz!!</td>
Well Im glad i didnt get the lesbian off of chasing amy!
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| Cady look! |
[23 Dec 2001|01:07pm] |
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The Get up Kids-red letter day |
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Which Rocky character are you?
haha....we used to watch it and always say that i was him...and look i really am! crazy...
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| break time...good times |
[23 Dec 2001|11:47am] |
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Midtown-get it together |
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I slept for a long time today then just layed in bed and listened to music...now im doing nothing and drinking tea..haha
Im so relaxed i dont have to do anything...its the nicest feeling.
So i talked to Tala last night she said she talked to Chris...i guess hes going though alot right now and when he was freaking out on the phone with me his dad made him go take a walk and get his thoughts in order.
i guess hes still off getting his thoughts in order cause he hasnt called me...thats whats going on i guess...and i was told he afraid to call me case he knows he hurt me. Maybe all talk to him someday. Finally when i have everything figured out with me and how i feel...and i finally tell him more then i ever have...he is more confused then ever with whats in his head. i just hope everything works out sometime soon. i keep thinking it will because im a dilusinal optimist...always avoid and think everything will be ok. Thats me!
Whats up with my sloppy seconds girls?
i dont know...i dont know.
Im gunna go jogging tonight...good times.
im bored...im going to write some crap. haha
*here is some things and memories about Chris*
How he always looks at me a certain way..sense the first time we met....and i always laugh cause i cant figure out what hes thinking...but he always tells me its something good...and i know it is because i look at him that same way.
One time i was joking around and asked him one of those dumb questins i always ask..i had my head rested on his shoulder..looked at him and said "would you be my friend if i was only a head?" haha...he said "of course as long as you still have your freakles"
When i had people over he kept downloading Iron Maiden and Marilyn Manson...and played it really load to try to embarass me.
How lonely i was the week he was gone and how good it felt to finaly hug him.
when i went to Vanessas the first time i was meeting him....girls where putting makeup on him...and how embarassed he was...
how he had little pieces of glitter on his face all night because of it.
Freazing on a trampoline and looking up at the stars.
Throwing food at each other at my surprise birthday.
Driving around listening to Sublime with him Brady and Sara.
How he stops kissing me to just look at me for awhile.
How he would have to hang out at my house during the summer and wait for me to be done for drivers ed..and sometimes when i got home he was sleeping on the couch....so we would just lay there together for awhile.
How we think the same things are funny and we always beat each other when it comes to saying something funny...then get mad cause the other person was going to say it.
The times we make ugly faces at each other...then realize how ugly we are and stop.
watching him sleep....
When he took care of me all night..beacuse...umm...certain reasons...and when i woke up he was right there next to me.
Watching cky2k with his grandma....hahahahaha
The time we talked online for the first time and realizing we have everything in common. talking all night.
trying to pretend im mad at him...but just laughing.
How he said i amazed him ever sense the first time he saw me.
How he trys to make me pick his nose...haha
The fucked up snow man movie we watched with Cady and ramas and other people.
The way he says he misses me.
How we have a sheep joke...and when i went to the fair i made people take pictures of me and sheep for him.
How we both drink tea and listen to Incubus..haha
How we both love the rain.
how much im writting!
And how i just realized how much i love him.
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[22 Dec 2001|06:26pm] |
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Went to Becca and Lizzie's party last night.
Chris is know where to be found, he hasnt called me since the night he said he would.
but i wasnt lonely i had my jolly hightimes friends with me haha...i had fun..then when the high was gone i sung christmas carols with becca and lizzie and ashley late at night. How crazy of a way to end a night like that. Ashley sang me my song...she said she will be better when shes older! haha
Today i watched bridgets jones diary and part of some other sappy movie didnt plan to watch those but they where on TV....then cleaned my house woo hooo!!
I've told my mom pretty much about everything thats been going on between me and Chris...she said she should call him and yell at him haha
Tala is pretty much Chris's best friend and she said that im single and i should do whatever i want..she said i need to go makeout with someone.
thats seemed like it might be a fun thing to do...but really i dont care about anyone else...i dont want anyone else.
why is he so sweet, but sooo selfish right now....nothing he has ever done has been selfish which is amazing for a person to do but he did it....not now thou
I always lose my thought whenever i start typing on this thing..i had so much to say and now its just not making sense.
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[21 Dec 2001|04:30am] |
whats better
for a username..im changing....tink was taken..its just so cute
so i could make it look pretty
xtinkx
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marhoelyn hahaha
which????
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| This is for HALLEY |
[21 Dec 2001|03:51am] |
HALLEY PLEASE TAKE THE SQUIRREL TEST!!
I REALLY WANT TO SEE THE RESULTS
IM AFRAID.....
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[21 Dec 2001|03:13am] |
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INCUBUS- STELLER....OUR SONG. |
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hey guess what im up
well..
cause im fucking insane waahahaha
im making cards for people doing homeowork and watching pearl harbor..why? cause im insane.
And im insanly missing Chris!!!!
today all i had to eat was sugarie stuff and excedrine sooo i was acting really strange i was all shaking and hyper. I was in the car waiting for my mom to get something and i felt like i needed to cry or break out into insane laughter...it was really weird...so then i cryed...and i was done. The end...it just was strange
Beccas party tomorrow...cum all ye!!
I have a feeling i will be very lonely...cause i dont think someone will ever call me. So maybe friday will become highday haha...its just a joke...just a joke.
just some of the words that can express my feeling right now.
BLURRY
pre-occupied without you
I cannot live at all
my whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl
you could be my someone
you could be my sea
you know that I?ll protect you
from all of the obscene
I wonder what your doing
imagine where you are
to make up your own ending
and let me know just how you feel
cause I am lost without you
I cannot live at all
my whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl
Nobody told me what you thought
nobody told me what to say
everyone showed you where to turn
told you where to run away
no body told you where to hide
nobody told you what to say
everyone showed you where to turn
showed you where to run away
explain again to me
YA, TAKE IT ALL AWAY BITCH! HAHA
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| the crazy part of me that was HIGH |
[20 Dec 2001|06:22pm] |
Histrionic
People with histrionic personality disorder are constant attention seekers. They need to be the center of attention all the time, often interrupting others in order to dominate the conversation. They use grandiose language to discribe everyday events and seek constant praise. They may dress provacatively or exaggerate illnesses in order to gain attention. They also tend to exaggerate friendships and relationships, believing that everyone loves them. They are often manipulative.
God im not that bad!!!!! only sometimes but seriously im not!
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[20 Dec 2001|05:13pm] |
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take this quiz to see what character or personality you're most like!
by divachop
well this is me i guess...quite interesting
yay!! BLUES CLUES
YES, i am a hot blonde that shakes her botty in videos..hum
i only wish...
I begged my mom to let me stay home today..i just had to much to do and to much to think about so i woke up at 11 then spent pretty much the whole day at the mall and driving around to different stores...good times. I got a few presents..and candy SACS for people...so yes most of u well be getting sacs tomorrow if your special!?
My mom and i shopped around the mall for a long time looking for things for the family my advo is helping out we got cute baby clothes and games for the little boys and other shiz. The mom wasnt even going to have Christmas for them because they couldnt aford it. So i guess my advo is their only Christmas..its so sad i want to buy them everything...i cant even buy enough for my friends oh well i should have thought of that when i was selfishly spending my money a few months ago.
Im makeing the funniest Christmas cards for people soooo funny. I love this thing i have on my computer!!
Im trying to make this a happy Christmas...some people just dont call me.
but i still kinda feel like we are still together all probably be worse when he really does break up with me.
I went to youth group last night with Cady and some Andrew guy we went to youth group for a really short time...i dont know why i wanted to go...no one was there it suxed and it felt expessaly empty without Chris there. So we left and went to get warm things to drink...odd people where out on a date....oh they made me laugh
haha...my chemistry teacher likes to talk about her BOX!!! HAHA
why is this song so messed up??????????
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